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First Times a Charm
Posted by blogs-of-freedom
at 10:49 PM on July 05, 2009
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First blog ever.
So some people have blogs about their life or food or movies. you name it it's probably out there. Well mine will be whatever topics you the people want. This is amarica were I live and I strongly believe in freedom of speach. But What I've noticed is how we have a right to say whst we want or believe we the people are still silenced. In Schools curse words, shirts with certain signs or sayings are prohibited. speaking out about religon is also a gaint no no in all schools. Even a light discution about what we believe is wrong. if a teacher or supirior finds out about said disscution then we get brought down because they think we are pushing our veiws on other people when really it's nothing like that.
What I can not seem to wrap my mind around is how some people do not want you to express your opinions. Most people would rather live in a delusional world were everyone thinks the same things they do. These people need to think and really wake up. The world does not fit into your fanasy.
Speach is a right we have even without the law or constitution in effect. Before we had these laws, all the way back before kings and even evelution we spoke our minds. We use to be a proud race who were given the gift to form words and sounds so that others can hear use. Why is it that at certain occations we must hush this ability so others can be comfortable? Because they do not believe in human opinions or even want to hear such opinions.
I want to hear every one's opinion one this subject matter and tell me exactly what you think. No suger coatings or bleep outs. Just pure opinion and thought.
July 06, 2009
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Now you might find this hard to believe, but I have never had any friends. I have always been alone. I've never had anyone to confide in. In fact, I'm ranting on your site because I have no one else to rant to.
Anyway, I have never had any friends or girlfriends. Hell, I've never even been on a date. However, for some reason, my pathetic life has never bothered me until now.
Now I look around me and everyone my age seems to be having the time of their lives. I have nothing. No special memories, no special friends, and certainly no special relationships.
It's becoming hard to live. I have just been so upset with myself.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that contemplating my life has taken away my self-confidence. I hate that I won't do anything to change it because I'm too afraid. I hate myself. I look at my reflection in the mirror and I feel like spitting.
I just wish I had someone to talk to, someone to love.
I wish I could look at myself in the mirror and be proud of who I am.
I spent so many lonely nights actually training myself to accept failure and depression. I've actually started to consider suicide. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to live a normal and happy life. It seems that the most obvious solution is to get out more and talk to people. But its not that easy. I'm too afraid of how people will judge me so I just avoid any social situation. I know its an illogical fear, but I can't help it.
I'm so sick of being alone.
I just want something in life. I need social interaction, I need friendship, I need love, I need direction, I need hope, I need self-confidence. For once in my life, I just want to be happy.
So there it is. If you are wondering why I chose to rant about my life on this site, it is because I don't have anyone to talk to. I'm not trying to be dramatic, I just want help.
So, you got any advice for me?
{P.S.}
By the way Gabby, if you haven't figured it out yet, you know me as 'Snake137' from xboxlive.
And suicide is a terrifying thought. I've visited that road many a times. It's never the answer. You have to think about the people who need and love you. Your family and I care a lot about you. And don't say they don't love or need you because they do. And even though I have never met you face to face you're an important friend and person to me and I would be devastated if I lost you.
And I am always here to listen. I may talk a LOT but I am always willing to listen if you ever feel it gets to be to much. You have my number so you can call me whenever you need to talk and I'm not online or on Xbox.
Just remember there are people out there who aren't douches who judge you. I'm one of them so just talk to me if you ever need a listening ear.
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